yesterday is history and its never coming back

I have alot floating around in my head right now so I came here to write it some of it down so excuse me if some thoughts are disconnected.

I have made it my goal this summer to do something fun with the kids every day, whether it be a day trip to the beach or trips to the museum or park, or just camping in the backyard or baking a cake together and letting them decorate it. Today we went to tot time at the Harn Art Museum where they were teaching the kida bout art and the difference and similarities between artists and their styles. Following that we went to CiCi's pizza and had much together. I was thinking this morning about why I made this commitment to myself and to my kids and why I felt it to be urgent that I do it. I've had this little pit of discomfort in my mind I guess you could say. And than it hit me sitting and watching my "babies" inside that pizza buffet. They aren't babies anymore.

Chandler will be 5 and starts preschool this fall. He is writing his name and is starting to read level 1 books. He's getting tall and lanky and his hair is starting to fall into place just like his Daddy's. He is getting his 4 1/2 going on 16 attitude. His Blue Jean teddy Nursery is morphing into a super heroes secret hideout with the Transformers and Spider man available avenge at a moments notice.

And than theres Gwyneth. My sweet little Gwynnie pop. The little girl I HAD to have just given birth too a few months ago. Theres no way its been 2 years. My sweet little baby who melted everyone heart with her toothless grin who now smiles with a full set of teeth as she poses with all the outfits she puts on every 5 minutes complete with her princess tiara and high heel shoes. She knows its not maybelline.. shes born with it! Theres nothing better than getting dressed up for Church on Sunday with her pretty princess dresses and bows in her hair. I look at her eating pizza in the chair cause she no longer needs a high chair and dont do anything for her cause she can DO IT HERSELF!

Sometimes I feel its going to fast for me. I feel like I have taken their time for granted. its so easy for me to get set into my routine of sitting at home, putting PBS kids on for them while I clean , read , check out the lifes of people on facebook. eh Chandlers only 4 theres not a whole for him to do anyway. well look now hes almost 5 and starting preschool.. next year he'll be in kindergarten and when You next blink they'll be in highschool and avoiding me like the plague and your still be sitting there on the internet wondering what the cool people are doing in their daily lifes. Thumbs down to me! Shame on me.. its sounds so cliche but time is short. I've always known this but somedays it hits me more than others but I do have the greatest kids ever.. why wouldn't I want to spend as much time with them as possible.

Sometimes I fear that I am not doing good enough. That I am not putting my kids on the right path. Am I doing anything that well screw my kids up forever? Maybe that a common mom fear. But I want my kids to look back and say " our parents were great and we had a great life. "
Anyway.. sorry for the rambling. I know my kids are doing great and that they've had a good life so far. Sometimes its just so overwhelming realizing how much time has gone by and how life can be taken away so quickly. I know I am only human but I hope that I never find myself taking their time for granted again.

“Time is free, but it's priceless. You can't
own it, but you can use it. You can't keep
it, but you can spend it. Once you've lost it
you can never get it back.” Harvey MacKay

the kiddos =D

A little bit of new info on the kiddos...

Chandler is still doing really well with his reading lessons. He read his first sentences the other day. Though he is starting to have trouble with some sounds. I and the TH sound is throwing him off a bit. he can never remember the I sound and he pronounces TH as a F. But I am sure he'll get it soon. He starts preschool in the fall! How crazy is that? I am trying to get him into a class but everything is so expensive! He is still really big into transformers and Star Wars. Other than that I don't think there is much to report with him.


Gwyneth is going to be 2 next month.. crazy. We just took the side off her crib and she will be going into a real bed next month. Its so not fair how fast they are growing up. She is talking up a storm and loves to do anything and everything Chandler does. She is also our little daredevil! She's not scared of anything. We took the kids to the park the other day and she climbed up the big slide by herself (I was behind her just in case) and slid down like it was nothing. Also I found out that she has incredible upper body strength.. I lifted her up to the highest bar on the monkey bars and she grabbed on and I decided to let her go and she just hung there! I wqas never able to do that! She's definitely going into Gymnastics when we can afford it. =)

5 year anniversary.. a bit late

On valentines weekend Michael and I went to Williamsburg Virginia to celebrate our 5 year anniversary. Its somewhere I've always wanted to go so I am glad Mike was willing. I had a great time. history overload. We left on Thursday night and drove until probably midnight and slept in Georgia. Than we got up early and drove the next 7 hours all the way to Virginia. The place we stayed was beautiful! We stayed in the Martha Washington Suite. I have never stayed in a place that had a kitchen and a living room, whirlpool tub and washer and dryer! We went out to dinner that night and went back to our room since everything was closed for the night. The next day (our anniversary) we went to Colonial Williamsburg. Lots of walking around. We went into a court house to watch a reenactment of a trial and we were both selected to be on the high court with the "judge" and decided who was guilty and innocent. That was a lot of fun. Not a whole lot to describe. Basically just alot of walking and looking at old buildings. Than we went to dinner at Food For Thought which is said to be the best restaurant in Williamsburg. It was rather tasty. After dinner we went on a ghostwalk .. which was my favorite part of the whole weekend. But it was VERY cold.

The next day we went to Jamestown and Yorktown Battlefield.
After Yorktown we started driving home. We figureed we would drive till we both got tired and stop to sleep somewhere. After I drove Mike took over and I fell asleep. I don't know what got into him but he drove all the way home! We got home Monday morning at 5 AM! It was a lot of fun!

music selection

I added a music player to my blog.. I am finally starting to figure things out here lol. But for some reason I wanted to give an explanation for the songs. Maybe I am just bored and looking for something to do.. anyway I am sure that the first song Come What May is obvious.. at least if you know us well its obvious. That is me and Michael's "song" . I would say it was the song we danced to at our wedding but it started skipping so we had to dance to another.

The Greatest Reward is my feelings toward my little family. It always makes me a little misty and reminds me of the love our family has and how much they have changed me for the better.

Beautiful Boy is my song for Chandler. the words and the music fit him so well. and I like to listen to it when we have a bad day cause even though me and Chandler can butt heads he will always be my beautiful boy.

A mothers prayer is for Gwyneth. I haven't quite found the perfect song for her but this one does talk about my hopes for her.

So there is your moment of useless information =D

I'm alive

2009 resolution #3 - write on my blog everyday ...

today's date - January 19

Status: FAIL

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So... obviously I haven't done very well with that resolution. But I won't give up! Even if no one reads this blog I still have a story to tell. It might be the most boring story ever but its my story!

My story today starts off at 5:15Am. I got up, got dressed, brushed my teeth and stretched for a few minutes. Than I left for Jackie's House (my running buddy) It was creepy foggy this morning. I couldn't see a thing in front of me driving which is quite scary going down a small dirt road. I kept getting flashes of scenes from various Scary slasher films where the silhouette of a man appears with a freakishly large knife by his side. And knowing me.. I'd be that stupid that just stands there for a few minutes giving him a pretty decent headstart.

Anyway.. off my wild tangent. I get to Jackie's and we set out. It's crunch time this week! Our 5k is this Saturday.. running out of time. We usually run around the block and walk the cul-de-sac but this morning we skipped the cul-de-sac all together. We got 2 miles out in 36 mins which isn't to bad. I aren't really doing this for time as of yet. I am just a beginner and I am just doing it to prove to myself that I can. And that if I put my mind to something I can do it.

The rest of the day I was a complete zombie! I was soo tired. With a headache to boot. I think Gwyn is getting into her terrible two stage already. Its 4 months early! She was into everything all day and just a grump. Her new thing to say to me now when I tell her to put something down is "But I WANT it!" So I had about a 5 minute stand off with her but finally she gave up and but the stuff back. Such a stinker but she is still so stinkin cute.

Chandler started a new letter with his reading lessons today. EEE. He is doing very well and I couldn't be more proud of him. He is taking to these lessons very well.. so far we only had one bad day. But after a short break he wanted to come back and try again. I love watching his mind grow and absorb everything around him.

Michael and I went to Lake City again today.. unfortunately Susan was not there so we wasted a day =/ Oh well. We can't be upset because she probably tried to contact us but I have no phone! On the bright side it was a nice car ride and nice conversation between us.

I don't realy have much else to say about today. Made dinner, bathed the kids, put them to bed. Now I am writing this and about to go lay down and go to sleep. That beautiful bed that I have been longing for all day. Goodnite =D